beyond home sick

so it has been almost seven months since last i saw home, or what was home, well i guess it always will be home. i can't begin to say how much i am missing it right about now. i long to see the ocean, put my toes in the sand and of course see family and friends. i have met a few cool people here, but am still on the fence with this place and the people in general. there is this high school element amongst people, clicks and what not, which i find strange coming from people no longer in high school. i miss going out and seeing familiar faces, dancing until all hours. heck i miss being able to go out to eat after said dancing. i miss the city, shops and the grit of the streets. i never thought i'd miss the things i'm missing, but i do, there are no words. i do so want to like this place, i'm just finding it hard lately. i know that once i go home, i'll remember how much i hate the traffic, smog, how expensive everything is, the general arrogance of people and my personal favorite newbies claiming to be locals and knowing more about the town you grew up in, but right now i long for it all, good and bad.